from falling apart to fighting mad, to wanting you back to not giving a damn, i've felt it all

hello vacation... how i have been looking forward to seeing you. for the next 10 days. :D it will be wonderful. :) it will be bliss.

got off work early, which was nice. :) seeing how i had to be there at 7. gross. i hate getting up that freaking early. when i went to start my car this morning there was ice of course, but it was "glittering" too. it was little tiny flakes that looked like glitter. maybe that means there will be snow... that would be wonderful, even though i am going to get my snow next week. :)

my goal for my break is to get this sleep problem figured out so i actually sleep more than 3 hours like i did last night. the fact that i had to be up at 4:30 sucked anyways... but on top of that not to be able to sleep worth crap is frustrating. this has been going on long enough that i am starting to get used to not sleeping and functioning on 4 or less hours of sleep, but that doesn't mean that i like it. boo.

my other goal for break is to not have to think about you. i was doing so well with not talking to you at all and then you decide to go and mess everything up. and saturday didn't help either, but i think that was more my fault than yours, but i still blame you. i think it was better when we weren't talking at all. and then you go and pull the "i miss talking to you" crap. good lord, would you please make up your mind and stick to it. i don't need or want to deal with this and you can't have your cake and eat it too (cliche i know, but it fits) i just to get over this whole thing and not have a constant reminder of everything all the time. just figure it out and then keep it to yourself. i don't wanna hear it. vent over. i feel a little better.

i also don't have to think about lesson plans for the entire month of january, cause they are pretty much done. my co-teacher and i rock. :) the week we get back, everything is set. the only thing i need to actually do is reserve books at the library to pick them up.

i need a haircut super bad. another goal for my break. guess i should call and make an appointment for monday or tuesday before i peace out for the rest of the week. :)

wednesday through saturday should be a nice stress reliever. plus it will keep my mind occupied and hopefully clear of all things negative. here's hoping for that.

off to figure out how to get warm, a much needed nap and prepare myself for a dinner full of drama and ridiculousness. i am going to need a good bottle of wine to handle this dinner. no joke.