the last day of spring break.
spring break consisted of me procrastinating to the point of getting really not a lot accomplished on my work sample. i have almost all my unit goals, which is a start, but not much. though i was able to finally get my food stamps back (thank goodness), figure out stupid edzapp and get 75% of that done, catch up on 4 weeks of posting for my learning communities class and for sure catch up on my sleep. too bad my sleep schedule is going to be totally screwed up for the whole week.
my stupid work sample is killing me. i don't know where to start. 6th grade is so much more different than 2nd grade. it's driving me up the wall. luckily i have a meeting with mike on monday to talk about it and hopefully it can help me out with it. they are just so much older than 2nd graders and their able to process a lot more, i just don't how to get it all down in a lesson plan for them to be able to do that. meh. i am just hoping that darcy isn't going to mind that i don't have anything ready for monday. i figured they are going to need time to work on their famous person research and such. since none of them are going to be ready for thursday night. meh.
i am surrounded by all this information, papers, books, binders and it feels like i am learning all of this for the first time. it's rather annoying. how the heck am i supposed to teach 6th graders about the aztec, inca and maya if i don't even freaking remember any of it. ugh.
pizza tonight for dinner. wonderful. that way i won't have to make lunch either. love it. :) plus i have free coffee for tomorrow morning. :)
new music and artists. :) went to the gavin degraw concert on friday and angel taylor opened for him. :) amazing. videos will come in a bit. i miss having a chance to always listen to music. it has been on constantly no matter where i have been this break. and i miss that. and finding new artists. and stealing music from people.
i have decided i need to start making more lists. obviously of what i need to do daily. but i want to make an actual life list. there is so much i want to do with my life. and apparently i have to start thinking about graduation gifts too. eek.
speaking of graduation... apparently there are only 55 more days till graduation. which means there are only 47 more days till i am done with my student teaching. soooo crazy. it's coming up so fast and it's scary. and what makes it even more scary is the fact that i have no idea what i am going to do after that. ugh. and i still need to find a dress for graduation. any ideas?
off to pick up pizza and hopefully get some sort of sleep tonight.
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
you drive away from my car crash of a heart
there are so many things home reminds me of... many of them i dislike. many of them i would rather forget or have tried. though there are the few good things i still remember.
leaving for school i tried to forget about most people in this town. i disliked high school and couldn't wait to get out of there. there are the select few people, besides my family, that i miss when i leave here. everytime. and many of them i hardly get to see.
i don't miss the arguing. for once it isn't me who is involved either. i have gotten along with my family quite nicely on this little vacation of mine. though i really don't miss the arguing between my parents. i can't stand it. it makes me cringe most of the time.
i also don't miss the crazyness of the house. it never seems to be in order. that is one thing i will never let happen. i will never let my things get this bad. and i will never get as out of control with my things as they have either. i could go insane.
my work sample is slowly coming along. i am more gathering more information to use. i really need to start on it. i only have till sunday to have a pre/post assessment and at least 3 lesson plans. i just don't have any motivation here. none at all. zero. meh.
off to mail my taxes off. then the library for a bit. maybe my sister's game. dinner with jillian tonight. :) who knows after that. back to the grove tomorrow.
leaving for school i tried to forget about most people in this town. i disliked high school and couldn't wait to get out of there. there are the select few people, besides my family, that i miss when i leave here. everytime. and many of them i hardly get to see.
i don't miss the arguing. for once it isn't me who is involved either. i have gotten along with my family quite nicely on this little vacation of mine. though i really don't miss the arguing between my parents. i can't stand it. it makes me cringe most of the time.
i also don't miss the crazyness of the house. it never seems to be in order. that is one thing i will never let happen. i will never let my things get this bad. and i will never get as out of control with my things as they have either. i could go insane.
my work sample is slowly coming along. i am more gathering more information to use. i really need to start on it. i only have till sunday to have a pre/post assessment and at least 3 lesson plans. i just don't have any motivation here. none at all. zero. meh.
off to mail my taxes off. then the library for a bit. maybe my sister's game. dinner with jillian tonight. :) who knows after that. back to the grove tomorrow.
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
why don't you stay
taking advantage of the internet that i am stealing from somewhere at my school right now.
this day is totally insane. there is a sub today cause my mentor teacher had a doctor's appointment. my kids feel that it is needed to take advantage of the fact that the sub is not really trying to keep control of the class. it's rather annoying. and apparently according to a lot of the kids in this class absolutely hate the pe teacher. apparently he is terrible with them and just mean. which is really funny cause that is totally not the case at all.
finally finished with updating my resume. it took me a few days, but it should be totally updated now. now all i am waiting on is letters of rec. i also need to buy in bulk resume paper so i can print a lot of copies of my resume.
i also need to do the grades for my 2nd graders from when they did health with me. it shouldn't take me too long to do it. thank goodness they are just effort grades.
thank goodness this is a short week. plus spring break is next week. :) yay. sadly it will be spent doing my work sample most of the time. i might be able to make it home, but most of the time will be spent doing that. otherwise i am going to be very far behind. i need to have my pre/post assessment completely done and a at least 3 or 4 lesson plans. which means i need to have a lot of information and ideas of what i am actually going to teach them.
found out my concert isn't this friday but next friday. such a bummer.
off to get through the rest of reading and on to snack.
this day is totally insane. there is a sub today cause my mentor teacher had a doctor's appointment. my kids feel that it is needed to take advantage of the fact that the sub is not really trying to keep control of the class. it's rather annoying. and apparently according to a lot of the kids in this class absolutely hate the pe teacher. apparently he is terrible with them and just mean. which is really funny cause that is totally not the case at all.
finally finished with updating my resume. it took me a few days, but it should be totally updated now. now all i am waiting on is letters of rec. i also need to buy in bulk resume paper so i can print a lot of copies of my resume.
i also need to do the grades for my 2nd graders from when they did health with me. it shouldn't take me too long to do it. thank goodness they are just effort grades.
thank goodness this is a short week. plus spring break is next week. :) yay. sadly it will be spent doing my work sample most of the time. i might be able to make it home, but most of the time will be spent doing that. otherwise i am going to be very far behind. i need to have my pre/post assessment completely done and a at least 3 or 4 lesson plans. which means i need to have a lot of information and ideas of what i am actually going to teach them.
found out my concert isn't this friday but next friday. such a bummer.
off to get through the rest of reading and on to snack.
Sunday, March 8, 2009
just gotta keep going
because i can't sleep and have been tagged many many times on this.
25 random things about me:
1) my one and only surgery was when i was 2 hours old. i was born with my intestines on the outside, so basically i had to be put back together. i have 3 scars from this surgery. and i don't have a regular bellybutton like everyone else does.
2) i have always been afraid of clowns. i remember my parents dressing up as clowns for i think my 3rd birthday party and i remember running out of the house to my grandparents lap, who were outside talking with old family friends.
3) i really wanted to study abroad when i was in college. my parents wouldn't let me. they also let my 15 year old sister go to ukraine the following september for 2 weeks.
4) i have worn glasses since i was 5 years old. i used to come home from kindergarten and my circles wouldn't be connected at all. i always had those old school big glasses too. then i broke them at a basketball camp one year and have worn contacts ever since.
5) i have broken two bones. my right wrist on the 2nd day of kindergarten falling off the monkey bars. and my pinky toe during a soccer game.
6) i am deathly allergic to bees. i am also allergic to a lot of other things, but am not going to even try and list all of them. i would probably miss a lot.
7) my first job was working in a cherry orchard in central oregon. back when my spanish was better.
8) heart problems run in my family. that is what every family member of mine has died from. i am afraid that is how i will too.
9) i dropped a dresser on my left foot when i was helping a friend move her room around and my toenails on my last three toes didn't grow back correctly and that is really why i hate my feet.
10) i absolutely hate feet. i think they are the grossest thing ever. i hate foot massages and when peoples feet get near me.
11) i love my handwriting and really always have.
12) i have had the same bruise for over a year. i was playing intramural softball and a guy on my team was up to bat. i was on 1st base and he ripped a ball right down the first base line and i had no chance to move. it nailed me in the right calf. i think it actually permanently did some damage. but to this day you can see part of the bruise. its in the shape of a circle.
13) i have a permanent clicking noise in both my right ankle and right thumb. one is from soccer and the other is softball.
14) my senior year of high school i was hit with a softball in the jaw by my coach. the very next day in our game i was hit in the back of the head while batting.
15) i have always had soft hair. like abnormally soft hair. and everyone who has ever told me that is always jealous.
16) i had a fear of bathtubs when i was little. i always thought i would get sucked down the drain.
17) i am afraid of drowning. which is a big part of the reason that i don't like to go swimming.
18) i love to read. last summer i read 13 books. the summer before that i read around 11. sadly i never have enough time to read during the school year. i save it for breaks. over christmas break i read 5 books. i think one day i want a whole room in my future house to be books wall to wall.
19) i want to travel. so bad. i wish i could just pick up everything and leave.
20) the only instrument i have ever known how to play is the clarinet. i hated that thing soooo much.
21) i miss playing competitive sports year round. i miss soccer, basketball and softball.
22) i am actually not related to a lot of my mom's side of the family that i know now by blood. i have never met my biological grandma or grandpa on that side. my grandma (biological) died when my mom was 17 and as far as my mom is concerned my grandpa ray is her actual dad and not orin. after my grandma (biological) died my grandpa ray married the woman that i call my grandma. both of their families are the only families i know.
23) i am totally terrified of what the future brings. in all aspects, but i know that things will work out how they are supposed to be and everything will be okay.
24) i am actually really afraid of the dark. but only if i am alone in a creepy place or a house by myself. i hate being in a house by myself. i start to hear everything and always think it is someone trying to break in.
25) i still have not gotten my wisdom teeth taken out. my dentist said i really don't need to and i have never actually felt them if they were coming in or not.
25 random things about me:
1) my one and only surgery was when i was 2 hours old. i was born with my intestines on the outside, so basically i had to be put back together. i have 3 scars from this surgery. and i don't have a regular bellybutton like everyone else does.
2) i have always been afraid of clowns. i remember my parents dressing up as clowns for i think my 3rd birthday party and i remember running out of the house to my grandparents lap, who were outside talking with old family friends.
3) i really wanted to study abroad when i was in college. my parents wouldn't let me. they also let my 15 year old sister go to ukraine the following september for 2 weeks.
4) i have worn glasses since i was 5 years old. i used to come home from kindergarten and my circles wouldn't be connected at all. i always had those old school big glasses too. then i broke them at a basketball camp one year and have worn contacts ever since.
5) i have broken two bones. my right wrist on the 2nd day of kindergarten falling off the monkey bars. and my pinky toe during a soccer game.
6) i am deathly allergic to bees. i am also allergic to a lot of other things, but am not going to even try and list all of them. i would probably miss a lot.
7) my first job was working in a cherry orchard in central oregon. back when my spanish was better.
8) heart problems run in my family. that is what every family member of mine has died from. i am afraid that is how i will too.
9) i dropped a dresser on my left foot when i was helping a friend move her room around and my toenails on my last three toes didn't grow back correctly and that is really why i hate my feet.
10) i absolutely hate feet. i think they are the grossest thing ever. i hate foot massages and when peoples feet get near me.
11) i love my handwriting and really always have.
12) i have had the same bruise for over a year. i was playing intramural softball and a guy on my team was up to bat. i was on 1st base and he ripped a ball right down the first base line and i had no chance to move. it nailed me in the right calf. i think it actually permanently did some damage. but to this day you can see part of the bruise. its in the shape of a circle.
13) i have a permanent clicking noise in both my right ankle and right thumb. one is from soccer and the other is softball.
14) my senior year of high school i was hit with a softball in the jaw by my coach. the very next day in our game i was hit in the back of the head while batting.
15) i have always had soft hair. like abnormally soft hair. and everyone who has ever told me that is always jealous.
16) i had a fear of bathtubs when i was little. i always thought i would get sucked down the drain.
17) i am afraid of drowning. which is a big part of the reason that i don't like to go swimming.
18) i love to read. last summer i read 13 books. the summer before that i read around 11. sadly i never have enough time to read during the school year. i save it for breaks. over christmas break i read 5 books. i think one day i want a whole room in my future house to be books wall to wall.
19) i want to travel. so bad. i wish i could just pick up everything and leave.
20) the only instrument i have ever known how to play is the clarinet. i hated that thing soooo much.
21) i miss playing competitive sports year round. i miss soccer, basketball and softball.
22) i am actually not related to a lot of my mom's side of the family that i know now by blood. i have never met my biological grandma or grandpa on that side. my grandma (biological) died when my mom was 17 and as far as my mom is concerned my grandpa ray is her actual dad and not orin. after my grandma (biological) died my grandpa ray married the woman that i call my grandma. both of their families are the only families i know.
23) i am totally terrified of what the future brings. in all aspects, but i know that things will work out how they are supposed to be and everything will be okay.
24) i am actually really afraid of the dark. but only if i am alone in a creepy place or a house by myself. i hate being in a house by myself. i start to hear everything and always think it is someone trying to break in.
25) i still have not gotten my wisdom teeth taken out. my dentist said i really don't need to and i have never actually felt them if they were coming in or not.
always gonna be an uphill battle, sometimes i'm gonna have to lose
most annoying weekend every.
friday:
my last day with my 2nd graders. our fieldtrip, which was awesome. gave my teacher her gift and she loved it. decided to go home. big mistake.
saturday:
ended up in a huge fight with the fam. drove back to the grove. upset and not focused for most of the day. went to buy food. food stamps don't work. ginger made dinner. had some nice drinks and watched one tree hill. ginger is finally finished with season 4. :) daylight savings made me lose an hour of sleep.
sunday:
woke up later than i wanted. lunch with sharone who i haven't seen in over a month. laid everything out to work on my worksample. i have only done on thing in one document. i think made ammends with my mother. who really knows though. taught caity how to use the oven to make pizza. laundry. avoiding work sample.
this week includes:
new placement. 6th graders. eek. though i do get my own desk which will be nice. finishing my work sample for 2nd grade. at least getting a start on my 6th grade work sample. or ideas. lots of observing. resume and cover letter writing. figuring out food stamps stuff. figuring out things with life.
things to do:
1) finish 2nd grade work sample, put it together and turn it in ASAP
2) food stamps stuff
3) resume and cover letter
4) laundry
5) organize piles in room
6) return binder to kris
7) borders books
friday:
my last day with my 2nd graders. our fieldtrip, which was awesome. gave my teacher her gift and she loved it. decided to go home. big mistake.
saturday:
ended up in a huge fight with the fam. drove back to the grove. upset and not focused for most of the day. went to buy food. food stamps don't work. ginger made dinner. had some nice drinks and watched one tree hill. ginger is finally finished with season 4. :) daylight savings made me lose an hour of sleep.
sunday:
woke up later than i wanted. lunch with sharone who i haven't seen in over a month. laid everything out to work on my worksample. i have only done on thing in one document. i think made ammends with my mother. who really knows though. taught caity how to use the oven to make pizza. laundry. avoiding work sample.
this week includes:
new placement. 6th graders. eek. though i do get my own desk which will be nice. finishing my work sample for 2nd grade. at least getting a start on my 6th grade work sample. or ideas. lots of observing. resume and cover letter writing. figuring out food stamps stuff. figuring out things with life.
things to do:
1) finish 2nd grade work sample, put it together and turn it in ASAP
2) food stamps stuff
3) resume and cover letter
4) laundry
5) organize piles in room
6) return binder to kris
7) borders books
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
there's a rain that will never stop falling
you know the expression, "when it rains, it pours"? basically the story of my life. at least recently.
so for the past 4 days i have spend my nights in the library working on some part of my work sample, whether it be updating or creating new documents to add to it. needless to say i have gotten a lot done, but still see no end in sight. there has also been new drama brought to my house that i am not about to deal with since i doesn't involve me. life has just been all around stressful including needing to work more hours, but not having enough hours in the day to do so.
so to top it all off today i get a phone call from my mom informing me that my sister has heart disease of some sort. she has been having trouble with her heart for over a year. she had a totally irregular ekg today when she went to dornbeckers today, they found she has an arythmia (sp?) and some other thing. needless to say she has to go and see a specialist of some sort next week and figure out what to do from there. competitive sports are out the window for her, which sucks because like me when i was her age that is her life. year round.
not sure how i can handle this. my dad already has heart failure. i don't think i can handle two family members with heart problems.
it just isn't fair. not at all.
so for the past 4 days i have spend my nights in the library working on some part of my work sample, whether it be updating or creating new documents to add to it. needless to say i have gotten a lot done, but still see no end in sight. there has also been new drama brought to my house that i am not about to deal with since i doesn't involve me. life has just been all around stressful including needing to work more hours, but not having enough hours in the day to do so.
so to top it all off today i get a phone call from my mom informing me that my sister has heart disease of some sort. she has been having trouble with her heart for over a year. she had a totally irregular ekg today when she went to dornbeckers today, they found she has an arythmia (sp?) and some other thing. needless to say she has to go and see a specialist of some sort next week and figure out what to do from there. competitive sports are out the window for her, which sucks because like me when i was her age that is her life. year round.
not sure how i can handle this. my dad already has heart failure. i don't think i can handle two family members with heart problems.
it just isn't fair. not at all.
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
believed in me when i gave up on myself again
new record for me to be in the library for 3 nights in a row. i think i have gotten more accomplished these past 3 days on my work sample then i have in the last few weeks. funny how that works out. i still have a lot to do, but i am getting so much closer to finishing it. seeing how it is due next monday. i have a feeling that is what i am going to be doing for most of the weekend as well. oh joy.
i am tired of the drama that is consuming my house. people need to freaking grow up, deal with your issues like an adult, not involve everyone around you, seeing how none of us want to be involved or really have time to deal with it, and get the hell over it. goodness. i don't even want to hear about what is going on. not even in passing.
my plans for spring break have fallen through. it really has to do with the lack of money. maybe i will just stay and work for a few days and get some extra money and then go home and visit or something. who really knows. but that means that i am going to have to deal with my sister's boyfriend who is supposedly coming to visit. i couldn't handle that. at all.
my teacher's present is almost finished. i think i am going to work on the letter after this, then head home and probably crash. i really just don't want to deal with anyone right now. i am not really in the mood currently.
ugh i still need to get directions to imlay elementary for tomorrow morning. i am supposed to be there at 8:20ish or so. which means i should probably leave my at least 7:45 just in case i get lost, since i seem to do that a lot.
off to write a thank you letter, get directions, go home and crash.
i am tired of the drama that is consuming my house. people need to freaking grow up, deal with your issues like an adult, not involve everyone around you, seeing how none of us want to be involved or really have time to deal with it, and get the hell over it. goodness. i don't even want to hear about what is going on. not even in passing.
my plans for spring break have fallen through. it really has to do with the lack of money. maybe i will just stay and work for a few days and get some extra money and then go home and visit or something. who really knows. but that means that i am going to have to deal with my sister's boyfriend who is supposedly coming to visit. i couldn't handle that. at all.
my teacher's present is almost finished. i think i am going to work on the letter after this, then head home and probably crash. i really just don't want to deal with anyone right now. i am not really in the mood currently.
ugh i still need to get directions to imlay elementary for tomorrow morning. i am supposed to be there at 8:20ish or so. which means i should probably leave my at least 7:45 just in case i get lost, since i seem to do that a lot.
off to write a thank you letter, get directions, go home and crash.
Sunday, March 1, 2009
how does it feel to be different from me
this weekend has been the longest ever. it started off great, but has slowly gone downhill with no end in sight.
this work sample is going to kill me. its the first time i have really done anything with it in about 2 weeks and i already feel overwhelmed. i have so much that i have no updated throughout the whole thing. there were documents that we did during our class in the fall that i have forgotten about and am now regretting not being more on top of things. though i have gotten more accomplished on it then i have in the last 2 or 3 weeks. but i still have sooooo much to do on it. i have a feeling i am probably going to be leaving at like 9, and working straight till then. i have about one week to get everything done and be ready to turn in. then its time to start alllll over from scratch in a grade i have no clue about. oh joy.
i have friends going through hard times as well and i feel like a terrible friend for not really knowing what to say. i know that everything is going to be okay and that they are going to be able to make it through up until then it is going to be hard.
i also need to work on my resume hardcore at some point. i have until the 19th to make that and my cover letter basically perfect because i am going to some hillsboro student teacher invitational. i figure i mine as well go and get more information and guidance.
i also need to start working more. i realized i have a lot of money left on my on my work study award that i need to use. luckily i will be working like every night during the housing lottery. and i have a feeling i am not going to get much sleep for those couple of weeks either. and i am going to have a lot to do, but i will have a nice large paycheck. :) which is always a good thing.
i also need to start thinking about finding jobs to apply to. which means i need to put my stuff up on edzapp soooon. i started today but figured my work sample was a little bit more important.
i need sleep. and more time during the day. and to not stress myself out so much. and to be able to breathe with relief.
this work sample is going to kill me. its the first time i have really done anything with it in about 2 weeks and i already feel overwhelmed. i have so much that i have no updated throughout the whole thing. there were documents that we did during our class in the fall that i have forgotten about and am now regretting not being more on top of things. though i have gotten more accomplished on it then i have in the last 2 or 3 weeks. but i still have sooooo much to do on it. i have a feeling i am probably going to be leaving at like 9, and working straight till then. i have about one week to get everything done and be ready to turn in. then its time to start alllll over from scratch in a grade i have no clue about. oh joy.
i have friends going through hard times as well and i feel like a terrible friend for not really knowing what to say. i know that everything is going to be okay and that they are going to be able to make it through up until then it is going to be hard.
i also need to work on my resume hardcore at some point. i have until the 19th to make that and my cover letter basically perfect because i am going to some hillsboro student teacher invitational. i figure i mine as well go and get more information and guidance.
i also need to start working more. i realized i have a lot of money left on my on my work study award that i need to use. luckily i will be working like every night during the housing lottery. and i have a feeling i am not going to get much sleep for those couple of weeks either. and i am going to have a lot to do, but i will have a nice large paycheck. :) which is always a good thing.
i also need to start thinking about finding jobs to apply to. which means i need to put my stuff up on edzapp soooon. i started today but figured my work sample was a little bit more important.
i need sleep. and more time during the day. and to not stress myself out so much. and to be able to breathe with relief.
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