how does it feel to be different from me

this weekend has been the longest ever. it started off great, but has slowly gone downhill with no end in sight.

this work sample is going to kill me. its the first time i have really done anything with it in about 2 weeks and i already feel overwhelmed. i have so much that i have no updated throughout the whole thing. there were documents that we did during our class in the fall that i have forgotten about and am now regretting not being more on top of things. though i have gotten more accomplished on it then i have in the last 2 or 3 weeks. but i still have sooooo much to do on it. i have a feeling i am probably going to be leaving at like 9, and working straight till then. i have about one week to get everything done and be ready to turn in. then its time to start alllll over from scratch in a grade i have no clue about. oh joy.

i have friends going through hard times as well and i feel like a terrible friend for not really knowing what to say. i know that everything is going to be okay and that they are going to be able to make it through up until then it is going to be hard.

i also need to work on my resume hardcore at some point. i have until the 19th to make that and my cover letter basically perfect because i am going to some hillsboro student teacher invitational. i figure i mine as well go and get more information and guidance.

i also need to start working more. i realized i have a lot of money left on my on my work study award that i need to use. luckily i will be working like every night during the housing lottery. and i have a feeling i am not going to get much sleep for those couple of weeks either. and i am going to have a lot to do, but i will have a nice large paycheck. :) which is always a good thing.

i also need to start thinking about finding jobs to apply to. which means i need to put my stuff up on edzapp soooon. i started today but figured my work sample was a little bit more important.

i need sleep. and more time during the day. and to not stress myself out so much. and to be able to breathe with relief.