Sunday, October 26, 2008

you only get one time around

new music :)

it's been a crazy few weeks. full of tons of homework, work sample, my classroom, and very little free time. my work sample is slowly coming along... rather stressful and sometimes really annoying. i will be glad when it is all done and put together. i do feel a little bit confused about a lot of it, but i guess you do a lot of work on it during student teaching, so i have time. i sort of feel that it's consumed my life. other homework seems not as important sometimes. haha somehow i get it all done.

i love my classroom. it is going to be really hard to leave them after student teaching is done in my first placement. i have been thinking about a christmas gift for my mentor teacher. i have a couple of ideas of what i want to do, but i am not quite sure which one i want to do. i know both are going to take a little work, but i figure i can do over my 3 week break.

i feel like i never see anyone anymore. it's frustrating sometimes not being able to see anyone cause i am so busy with everything else that has consumed my life.

off to deal with laundry, psych learning exercise, stress free rest of the night - hopefully.

Saturday, October 11, 2008

we can't forget these are the days

weekends are not long enough. they should be 3 or 4 days. it would make things much easier. and probably better.

today has not been the best day. i have come to realize that i feel very unappreciated by certain people. i give and i give and i get nothing in return but a slap in the face. i am tired of it. i have also learned that my sister is very selfish. i don't know why this bothered me so much but it did. and then when i tried to talk to her or my mom about it all i got were excuses or yelled at. i just don't get it. then i get told that the only reason i am mad was because my parents didn't let me study abroad but let my sister go. no no that is a totally different issue. i will always be jealous of the fact that she got to go and i didn't cause my parents wouldn't let me. but that isn't why i am upset and no one is listening to what i am trying to say. i finally just gave up.

on top of that i was drying towels and all of a sudden the stupid dryer broke. so now our dryer is broken. lovely. just going to make doing laundry a bigger pain.

my work sample is bothering me. i am having trouble trying to figure out my rationale. the other two parts are pretty much done. hopefully kris will be able to help me out a bit more with the questions that i sent her.

i need to organize my stuff. all over the place and bothering me.

*sigh*

Monday, October 6, 2008

you stay alone forever

my life is consumed with busyness and stress. go figure.

my classroom today was crazy. they were all over the place. luckily my teacher and i together got them to calm down a lot and things worked out pretty well the rest of the day. my soc class was alright. i got a little bored. i am hoping we are making progress on our stupid soc group project. our one group member is still being a little bit difficult, but at least we have finally set up an meeting time for friday. i proceeded to show up for my work sample class at 5 when it actually starts at 7. so annoying. class tonight was sooooooooooooooo helpful with my work sample stuff. i am working on making a list to email my teacher so i can get some help on what i don't have access to. :)

though this work sample has brought on a lot more stress now though. much more to do with no real free time.

oh i finally got my 2nd placement. and its closer than aloha. thankfully i will be at banks elementary, which is only about 10 minutes away instead of 30. i meet with the principal tomorrow afternoon for my screening interview.

apparently i pissed off one of my housemates this morning. i was being "too loud" as i was leaving. i got this wonderful silent glare and really nothing else. well no wonder he heard everything... his freaking door was wide open. not very smart of him when you live right next to the kitchen. duh that's just common sense.

laundry tomorrow night. plus cleaning off my roommates bed since its just a big pile of clothes, blankets and such. i figure i would put them all away so she could sleep off her plane ride back from texas. :)

apparently my sister jacked up a $175 phone bill to her hotel room in ukraine cause she didn't use her international card right. oops. :) at least they have it figured out and know how they are going to pay for it. speaking of which, i still have not heard from her, which is stupid since i'm sure her little boy thing has gotten plenty of phone calls. grrrr.

alright i need to be productive and make my to do list for this week. and shower.

Saturday, October 4, 2008

inside my heart there is an empty road

orela test is over. thank goodness. 4 hour tests on saturdays should not happen. hopefully i did good enough to pass then i don't have to take anymore big tests like that during my undergrad. :) i think our scores are emailed to us on the 20th and we get them officially on the 26th or so. i hate waiting.

tomorrow is going to be spent in the library working on my work sample. oh joy. i feel really lost, but thankfully monday night is going to be spent going over everything and making sure everyone is doing everything right. i also need to go to goodwill and take the bags that my roommate created from old crazy stuff.

i am officially sick of one of my group members from my soc group. okay actually the three of us are sick of her. she is freaking annoying, not very smart, and is making this whole project super difficult. its getting more frustrating and i am about ready to snap. i am hoping we get it figured out soon and don't have to go to jaycee.

i need to get out of here soon. i am getting agitated and frustrated. washington next weekend? maybe.

shower time. then movie. then sleep.