so take back everything you ever said

it was wonderful to get away. :) love it.

don't love falling down half my stairs on my knee. not only do i have a big rug burn, a bruise starting, but my knee is throbbing. it's going to be wonderful tomorrow. i am also getting another bruise on my other leg from falling. lovely.

soc group project tomorrow, psych test and paper due on tuesday and then my soc final on the 9th and then i am done! thank goodness. starting in january i am student teaching full time. scary. but first a whole month of vacation. much needed vacation.

figured out what i am getting austyn for christmas. another present i don't have to pay for either. :) and ginger. still nothing for sharone and mi padre. hmm...

spending 4 hours with jillian on wednesday was wonderful. :) love it. i think that is two record for us, longest time seeing each other at one time and the most time seeing each other in one month. lovely.

off to figure out something to do with my knee, wash my face, brush my teeth and possibly sleep.

i can't waste time so give it a moment

it's monday and i feel i need to vent a little frustration and annoyance.

didn't sleep well at all last night. woke up a few times in the middle of the night, the last time being over an hour before my alarm clock went off and i couldn't go back to sleep. go down to make coffee and remembered that we didn't have creamer. luckily austyn gave me 3 dutch dollars so i did get coffee which has kept me going. my kids drove me absolutely crazy. i had kids pushing other kids, kicking, hitting, and just all over the place.

i am tired of my alternator belt squealing all the time. it is so frustrating and embarrassing. people look at me like i am an idiot and don't know my car is making that sound. trust me i know.

speaking of car... someone in my schools parking lot hit my car and gave me a new dent. wasn't there this morning and then appeared when i was leaving. no note, nothing. lovely.

i don't want to go to my soc meeting, or my doctor's appointment. have to tell them i need a referral cause i can't afford going to them with my new insurance, plus they obviously aren't doing something right cause my face still isn't getting any better.

finally got the last check for gas. it is really frustrating when you have to ask 15 fucking times to get a check. seriously that just rude. not to mention inconvenient. ugh.

i'm pretty sure i am going to have to take my toaster oven home over break to clean it. also really tired of someone saying they will clean it and then they never do. so i am standing by my word and taking out of the house. freaking get over it.

it was so cold in our house last night that i had to wear gloves to bed. somehow that just doesn't seem normal or okay when you are sick. it's bullshit if you ask me.

alright i think i have vented enough. off to print work sample, soc homework, soc meeting, gas, doctors appointment, shower, class, bed. good lord.

tried and true, fading in the twilight

being sick is the worst thing. not a huge fan of it.

i am in need of a much longer break than thanksgiving break can bring. not much of a break though. i have a ton of psych notes to copy, a portion of an 8-10 page group paper to write, psych reading to do so i will at least be able to understand the stuff i have missed some what, not to mention a ton of laundry and the most important thing, getting over this stupid freaking sickness.

i hate being alone on a friday night. stupid sickness has made having a social life a little difficult.

i also hate being lied to. if you say you are going to do something, then just do it. if you aren't then it would be nice to know in advance. seriously.

counting the days till i can get away for more than just a few days. if only it could come sooner.

off to possibly sleep without coughing all night.

it's too late for you and your white horse to come around

so far this has been the best weekend for a long time. :) love it.

really started on tuesday with my sister's semifinal soccer game against OES. minus having to drive home, best day ever. they made it to the finals. so yesterday was spent in wilsonville watching history being made. my sister's team is the first team from philomath to make it to the championship match AND win it all!!! The played valley catholic from beaverton and beat them 2-0. it was an amazing game to watch and very exciting. pictures from after the game:

olive garden afterwards wasn't too bad either. wonderful actually. finally got to hang out with maggie too. love that she game with me. at the game it was like a little philomath reunion with people from my class that i played soccer with and others too. it was a lot of fun. :)

today has been spent doing homework. but luckily i get to watch peter pan for homework. wrote my paper for tomorrow. sent and posted pictures from yesterday. then i think after this i am going to be working on my christmas list and my ideas for presents for people so i know what i need to buy and what i already have. possibly write back to jillian in there somewhere. maybe i will actually get to my work sample. haven't done anything for awhile and its all due next week. looks like that is what i will be doing all this week. lovely.

i love that christmas is coming. and thanksgiving of course. dani put up lights in our room the other night and surprised me. :) it was wonderful. and holiday candy. i can't wait to decorate for christmas. it will be wonderful.

new music. i love it when my mom buys music and then i can steal it.

off to work on the christmas list. then peter pan. then possible dinner.

you can't break a broken heart

i just love it when people talk behind your back and then it gets back to you. seriously some people are just ridiculous and immature. good luck to you in life.

new music. :) drowning myself in it's amazingness.

so today's student teaching didn't go so well. basically the substitute teacher told me she didn't feel comfortable with me teaching. mind you teaching stuff i have been doing for almost two months. it made me really frustrated because i knew i couldn't say anything to her.

tomorrow will make up for it. many amazing things. leaving psych early. driving home. getting to see jillian for the second time in two weeks... a record i think. sister's semi-final soccer game. getting to see john, verity and the kids for the first time in a couple years. and i get to be out of forest grove. good enough for me.

meh off to sleep. hopefully.

so give me a reason

i hate unwanted surprises. never a good thing.

today has been an off day. not a huge fan of off days. i just feel blah and have no motivation to do anything. it's frustrating. i did watch my disney movie for my soc project. make a cover so dani will quit hitting the light switch and turning off my alarm. went to target and got what a needed. but i haven't done any of my work sample stuff, probably cause i had no motivation to since i don't have to go to class tomorrow. but that is probably what i am going to be doing tomorrow night. and my soc paper. and my lesson plan for wednesday. since tuesday is pretty much out of the question.

speaking of tuesday. :) saturday my sister's soccer team played gladstone and beat them to make it to the semifinals for the first time since i was a senior in high school. so again i will be traveling to philomath to watch the playoff game on tuesday. just like my senior year, they are playing OES in the semi's, but this time it is at home. this is the team that has the chance to make it to the finals. if they win saturday's final game is at wilsonville high school.

also saturday i ran into a couple of friends from high school, both are married with babies. very cute. i also found out that one of them, who i haven't really talked to since graduation actually lives in north plains, like 5-10 minutes from me. :)

tomorrow morning i am going to be teaching all on my own. my teacher is still going to be arizona, so she has a sub and wants me to teach since i am going to know the class better than the sub. should be interesting.

sarah and i are buying our twilight tickets this week. yay!

i forgot how much i love modpodging things. it's actually really relaxing. takes my mind away from everything that is bothering me. i'm thinking that is what i want to do for christmas this year, a lot of modpodging of presents. plus homemade almond roca. yum.

oh christmas how i love thee. target in the christmas section was wonderful. i love it all. the lights, the smells, the ornaments, everything. i'm excited that most of my housemates and my roommate are going all out with me to decorate. plus an ugly sweater party. :) wonderful. tree, wreath, lights, ornaments, candles, the whole shebang.

should probably try and be more productive. or maybe i will just shower and watch another disney movie. i like the second idea better.

this is the last straw don't wanna hurt anymore

i will be very happy when tomorrow is over and one with. i am so tired of every other commercial on the television or the radio being something about the measures or how bad certain candidates are. good lord. so frustrating.

found out today i am on track with my work sample and i don't have to go to class next week. plus the following week none of us will have class cause of some conference our professor is going to. then the following week out full work sample is due. i can't believe that it's coming up sooooo fast. it's rather scary.

so not really sure why, but what i found out today sort of bothers me. i mean i know it shouldn't and i shouldn't care, but i can just feel it itchy and scratching at me. i mean it was bound to happen and it should, i guess i just wasn't quite ready for it.

off to sleep and ponder.

whisper the words, the words that my heart wants to hear

new week... new things to think about and take care of. lovely.

i swear all i do is my work sample anymore. i have psych homework to do, but by the time i get done with my work sample i am all homeworked out. i just want to sit back and relax. hopefully psych tomorrow with katie and studying on tuesday and wednesday for thursdays test. can't forget my soc project either. i haven't done anything for it, but i should probably work on that.

i find out my orela test scores tomorrow. super nervous and worried about passing. crossing my fingers and hoping for the best.

i really need to do laundry, but just feel there is no time to do it. i will probably do a load or two tomorrow. running out of pants and nicer shirts for my school observation.

halloween at my school was crazy. not only was it halloween that involved a school wide parade in their costumes, but it was also the end of the month which means they had their spirit assembly, which was total chaos in it self. maybe not total chaos, but definitely not something i would think would happen in the school. by the end of the day i was ready for a nap. though after my teacher and i worked on stuff for next week we went out and had drinks. and i didn't have to pay for anything. love it.

i feel very unprepared for the future right now. i have no idea what i want to do. i am not really thinking grad school right now. i mean i am sure i will totally figure things out once things get closer to decision time. i just don't want to screw things up. who knows. meh.

need to hang up clothes and then sleep. up at 5:45 tomorrow morning. gotta love that.