Friday, April 4, 2008

i haven't done this in a while so i don't know what to say

i have something on my mind that i want to be able to talk about. ever since this afternoon when i heard about it i have wanted to talk to someone about it. i came close tonight but i just couldn't do it. i know its important and the severity of it scares me to death, but i don't know what to say. i don't know how to bring it up and every time i think about it i break down and cry. last night when i was teary eyed for no reason maybe it was because i knew something wasn't right, but honestly i never imagined it was going to be this. i honestly don't know what to do or even say.

i don't open up to a lot of people, maybe that's why its hard to talk something like this. i am scared of what might happen if i open up to someone.

i'm scared to lose you more than you know. you have been my rock, my saving grace, my angel and without you i would be lost. i can't say i know what you're going through because i don't, but you have to know that i will always be there for you no matter what. i love you with all my heart. i can't imagine life without you.

i'm worried. scared. afraid. and somehow i feel all alone.

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