it's gonna be alright baby

i am two weeks into my new grad school class and i have come to the conclusion that all i am going to be doing for the rest of my 6.5 weeks in this class is reading. reading, reading, reading. that's it. with a paper here and there, but mostly reading. 

i don't know if it's that i haven't been in school for 2 years and i forgot the amount of reading that there was in college, or that there is far more reading when you are a grad student, but i definitely feel a little overwhelmed with the amount of reading i have to do every week. it's seriously at least 500 pages from a variety of articles and such. like this week, let's see: 

chapter 11 from one of my textbooks, 6 different online articles from the library; each at least 50 pages as a minimum, a 150 page article that i need to summarize and put into a matrix and follow the guidelines. i then need to send my information in my matrix to my group members... er member. i also needed to find an article to go with my action research proposal plan topic and read summarize and write about that. 

at let me tell you, i never really liked group projects, but having a group project when everyone is spread out across the United States and i am here in Korea... yah it blows big time. it's very hard to get a hold of everyone. we started out as a group of 5. but since then 2 of our group members are inactive (as in they haven't done anything in the online classroom at all). i got a message from one of my group members today, apparently the 3rd one has not responded to anything, so he is emailing the professor and asking for advice on what we should do. this just seems to be way more stressful than i remember. 


i just need to keep in mind that this is all going to work out and it will be fine. i am doing this to further my education. thankfully i was informed that there is a 2 week christmas vacation that is built into the class around the holidays. so i will have a 2 week break where i don't HAVE to do work, but if i need time to catch up on things i can. after the new year, i will finish my last week and a half of class and be done. then i will be taking a voluntary 2 week break because i will be going to indonesia in january for my winter vacation. i am quite excited for that. 


i feel like all i have done is read today. and i am no where near being done. i have decided it's 9pm and i'm done for the night. i can't handle reading and summarizing anymore. that's what i will be doing tomorrow after i am done teaching and lesson planning. 


it's also starting to get cold out. we had a cold patch a while back and then it got warm again, which has been nice, but now it's getting cold again. cold enough that i have to wear socks to bed... and we all know how much i loathe wearing socks to bed. but it's far too cold otherwise. 


i need to go pack away all of my reading. the pile on my floor is growing...