this will be short, with more to come later in the week. at some point.
today's visit and talk with he who shall remain nameless got me thinking. yes i became an emotional basket case after i left... this is usually what happens with said person. but something he said triggered something else in me that has never happened before. with the mention of moving across the country, part of me got a little bit jealous. i want to be able to do that. i want to be able to move to a new place and start over. i want the same opportunity he is getting. i know i am not happy here and i know i feel like i am going to get stuck. but i want to be able to start fresh somewhere new... sort of like starting over.
i'm jealous. i'm scared. i'm frustrated. i'm angry. i'm hurt. i'm an emotional mess. i want to know that things will work out and everything will be okay.
i want a fresh start.
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