i never promised there'd be sunshine everyday

so i got tagged on facebook a few times and i figured i would put it here. so here goes....

16 things about me:

1. my one and only surgery i ever had was when i was 2 hours old. they basically had to put me back together after i was born. i was born without a belly button. not many people can say that.

2. i love the feeling i get when i see a child get something. the way their eyes light up and they get that big smile on their face. it lights up my world. it's what i live for.

3. i hate the dark. when i was little i was super afraid of the dark. i guess you could say i sort of still am. if i am alone in a place that i haven't been before, there has to be a light on or everything spooks me.

4. as much as i can't stand feet for many different reasons, my toenails always have to be painted. it drives me crazy when they are not because i think my toes look gross. paint makes them look better in my opinion.

5. i miss my family more than i tend to lead on. i try and be an independent girl who is out in the real world surviving, but deep down i miss them most of the time.

6. i love books. and music. and shoes and bags. i guess you could call me a little crazy when it comes to any of those, but i love 'em.

7. i have a hard time getting rid of things such as old letters and keepsake things. my box from high school was recently cleaned out and i finally got rid of most of my graduation cards. i just don't want to forget anything, which i guess is why i keep little random things.

8. one day i want to own a yellow lab and possibly a great dane. i never had a dog growing up and usually am scared of big dogs, but one day i will own both. for myself and to prove everyone wrong. :)

9. freshman year of college i wore slippers (flip flops for most of you) for most of the year... even in the winter. but my love for heels has taken over and i usually don't wear slippers till summer. and i can't help but call them slippers for as many times as i got told i was wrong freshman year by sharone.

10. i have only broken one bone. i fell off the monkey bars on the 2nd day of kindergarten and had to wear a cast for 7 weeks. needless to say my parents decided to go with a white one. and by the end, it wasn't so white.

11. i love candles. they all just smell amazing.

12. i played the clarinet in middle school and can honestly say that i hated it most of the time. my parents told me i should play an instrument, but when it came to picking it, they wouldn't even hear of me playing anything but the clarinet.

13. i grew up shooting guns at targets and old beer and soda cans with my dad out on deserted roads in the middle of nowhere and i loved it.

14. i have been told that i talk in my sleep. not like carrying on full conversations, but i will say the most random things. i think i get that from my dad. he woke himself up once because he was 'supposedly' choking on a golf ball.

15. i am afraid of failure and disappointment more than anyone will ever know.

16. i have a life list. i have never really written it down, but i know there are things that i want to accomplish and do and see. maybe one day i will get around to writing it all down.

life is way too short to scream and shout

writing lesson plans isn't the greatest thing in the world. neither is procrastination in doing them or any of the other things i have to do for my work sample/2nd grade classroom.

i am stating to feel overwhelmed a little. i have to write at least two lesson plans today and have an idea for the 3rd one. that way i will for sure have all my lessons planned for this week. i also need to have an idea of what i am going to do for the rest of my lesson plans as well since starting the week after this one i am going to be on my own for everything. eek. this is starting to consume my life. and not only do i have to write lesson plans for my work sample, but i have to write lesson plans for every lesson that i teach outside of that too. i find that to be a big waste of time and less time i am going to have to work on any of my other work sample stuff. ugh.

so far i think i have most of my 3rd lesson of the week done. now i only have two more to write. i also realized that i need to go to barnes and noble or borders and find a book that my mom said she would have for me, but then turned around and said she didn't have time to find. rather annoying and taking time away from me writing my lesson plans.

ugh. all i want to do is go home and go to bed. but i must drag on and write yet another lesson plan. if i can get one more lesson plan out of me i will call it good and head to barns and noble to hopefully find my book that i need for tuesday. lovely.

i feel very consumed by all of this and am getting nervous and stressed. never a good combination.

off to write a lesson plan about fruits and veggies.

and i don't know where this long road ends

love pandora. :) i'm sure i've said that before, but today at work was awesome. lots of new music.

this 3 day weekend was nice. :) nice to be able to sleep in for more than just a day a or two. back to the grind of things. i did get a lot accomplished this weekend, everything except for what i really needed to. i really need to start my lesson plans for the lessons that i am teaching outside of my work sample. so far i only have a math lesson and a scholastic news lesson to write up so far, but i know that if i get behind i am going to be so screwed. so i need to start working on them tomorrow after class. i also need to start working on my work sample some more and get some more lessons down before i start my work sample next week.

4 day week this week. we will see how it goes. tomorrow is inauguration day. i have to wear red, white and blue and my 2nd graders are going to watch the inauguration with a 3rd grade class. should be interesting.

i am slowly getting things figured out. present and future. found another job to apply for after graduation. actually two of them. things will slowly fall into place.

off to get ready for bed. and tomorrow.

i don't know what i want, so don't ask me

absolutely sick and tired of being the only girl in a house full of idiots. it is seriously getting really old. i wonder why i am never at the house...

wanted was interesting last night. not really sure how i felt about it. i liked it for the most part, but the ending was really weird. i think it would be cool to be able to curve a bullet. random.

bought new pillows yesterday... finally. and they were only $4.99. i love sales. we went to kohl's looking for boots for me, but like usual they wouldn't fit around my calf's which really sucks. so instead i came out of there with pillows and a picture frame that i have been looking for. :) also went to pf changs for the first time. it was really good.

babysat for ryan while he moved today. his kids are adorable. i have never seen anyone so allergic to pennicilin though. drew, the youngest has the flu right now so he is on amoxicilin right now and ryan is so allregic to it that even though drew is taking it, ryan is the one that is breaking out in hives. it's pretty intense.

off to mcminnville with ginger. anything to get the hell out of here is fine with me. :)

i really do need to go into work tomorrow for a little bit. not sure what they have for me to do. which reminds me, i still need to reply to the emails about moving in for spring semester to a couple people. i also need to get my butt into gear and write some lesson plans for yesterday's lessons that i taught and for my work sample, since i am starting that next week... scary.

off to run away.

every night is another story

i can't believe the weekend is almost over. it's actually really sad.

most of my day yesterday was spent working. then we had people over for dinner. it was nice to have people over. :) today i went into the office again. though filemaker kept freezing on my so i wasn't able to finish the apps that i wanted to. so now i am back at home doing laundry, cleaning up my room and bathroom and getting ready for tomorrow.

tomorrow starts my second week of student teaching. the first one went well. i am going to enjoy it, but i am still getting nervous for taking over and for starting to teach my work sample. and then there is always the 6th graders that i am going to be teaching starting in march.

last week i also got to go to my first blazers game in years. even though we were only 3 or 4 rows from the very top it was fun to go. it was a big group from work that went. plus an extra was that they were playing the pistons so i got to see iverson play. :)

i hate doing laundry. it's such a pain. especially when people leave their stuff in the washer for hours and leave the house. sooooo annoying.

off to fold more laundry, deal with my jeans, cleaning up my room and possibly watching some old oth.

when my time comes

so today was the first day that i got to leave my elementary school before it was dark and before 5pm. it's the little things that make me happy. :)

though i did bring home spelling tests to grade. which actually isn't going to take me that long and i guess i better get used to it, since i am going to be soon bringing everything home to grade. 24 tests isn't really that bad. i am hoping that i am going to be able to help my teacher become more organized by the time i am done in march. it was so crazy trying to find things without my teacher there today.

i really need to clean up my room. i am the only one here since dani is in cuba till the 27th. but i have crap everywhere shoes, clothes, books and such for my second work sample, goodwill pile, a couple boxes and such. and now that we finally have garbage bins i can take our bags downstairs and out of our room. finally.

and we have tv in our room now. only the basic channels till i reprogram all the other ones. but the basic ones are all that i really need right now. hehe. :) though the flatscreen above the fireplace is much better to watch on.

have i mentioned how much i love our house. it's basically amazing. and now that we are totally moved in and settled, it is even better. :)

ugh i need to fold my laundry and finish cleaning up my room before sharone comes over.

i'll follow you into the dark

love this mash-up. :)

there goes my hero

first off... happy new year! i can't believe that it is already 2009. scary.

second... we are finally moved into our new house. it is so nice and amazing. we love it. the boys are pretty much all unpacked and settled and go figure dani and i are still trying to get most of our stuff situated. i think for now i am pretty much settled. dani is bringing a dresser back from lincoln city tomorrow so we have to do some rearranging before we are completely settled. after that i can finish unpacking my clothes into my dresser. then that will be less stuff in the room cause it will go to the attic storage area.

i need to go through a lot of my stuff and get rid of a lot. though i was thinking about it. most of the stuff that i have i use. i have a lot of blankets, but most of them have been made for me, so i don't want to get rid of them. i have a lot of books, but that is because i love to read; including all my kids books. :) i think a couple of my goals are going to be use up all the freaking lotion i have. there is so much of it that i kept finding. i also want to be able to clean out my multi-colored drawer thing i got freshman year and get rid of it before i move out. we have a house goal to finish off all of our tea that we have in the house.

thankfully my foodstamps money comes on my card tomorrow cause i need to get stuff for dinner on sunday and stuff to make lunches everyday from now till freaking may. i am not going to like making my lunch everyday. leftovers here i come. :)

we need to get curtains from our landlord because they forgot to leave them. so currently there are no curtains in our room, which is annoying. thankfully it isn't sunny out. haha.

off to clean and unpack some more. maybe read.