Wednesday, April 28, 2010

i just need you now...

you know... having a semi-deep conversation, or at least a tense one, before you go to bed is probably not the greatest idea. makes for a crap night of sleep. i don't want to get back into the habit of terrible sleep again. not that my sleep habit right now is the greatest, but it's better than it was. except for last night. i woke up like 4 times in the middle of the night wide awake. i'm just happy i didn't have to wake up at 5:30 this morning, even though i was awake at that point.

much needed mental health day today. :) i know it's the middle of the week, but it's totally worth it. plus i will be able to get things done that i can't during work hours. like closing the two bank accounts i haven't used in ages. i have a total of like $10 in both of them combined, but don't use them. ever.

ginger's senior project presentation is on my list as well. plus lunch with lisa and jean. and the craft store, but that's actually for work, sort of.

i feel less confused about the whole situation i have in front of me. it's still a messy complicated situation, but considering we are on the same page, i think, it's a little less confusing. who am i kidding... this whole thing is one big mess. how it got here, i have no idea, but it is what it is and at this point i'm okay with that. i guess.

"i'm ready to feel now, no longer am i afraid of the fall down, it must be time to move on now, without the fear of how it might end"

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