in the end close is all there is but you won't find this

story of my life... carrie underwood's new cd, "play on" pretty much sums it up. seriously.

Run, run, run away don’t let him mess with your mind
He’ll tell you anything you wanna hear
He’ll break your heart it’s just a matter of time

I unapologize
I meant every word
Won't take back the way I feel about you
I can't unsay what you heard
'Cause you heard me right
And I won't try to fight em' back, or hide my feelings for you
I unapologize.

I hate to think all you had of me
(I said all I had to say)
Is a memory I left you,
Space between what was mean to be
(In letters I threw away)
And the mess that it turned into

Play on
When you're losing the game, play on
'Cause you're gonna make mistakes
It's always worth the sacrifice
Even when you think you're wrong
So play on

Even when the flood gates swing wide open
Never let the currents take you down, no
Even when you're not sure where you're going
Swimming through a mess, and you can't get out
Just going through the motions, and trying not to drown

And I'm not sorry that it's over
But for the way we let it end
So I said all I had to say
In letters that I threw away


totally how i feel right now. there are time when i find myself playing this song on repeat.

"Undo It"

I should have known by the way you passed my by
There was something in your eyes and it wasn't right
I should have walked, but I never had the chance
Everything got out of hand, and I let it slide
Now I only have myself to blame
For falling for your stupid games
I wish my life could be the way it was before I saw your face

You stole my happy
You made my cry
Took the lonely and took me for a ride
And I wanna Uh-uh-uh-uh-uh undo it
You had my heart, now I want it back
I'm starting to see everything you lack
Boy, you blew it
You put me through it
I wanna Uh-uh-uh-uh-uh undo it

Now your photos don't have a picture frame
And I never say your name, and I never will
And all your things, well I threw 'em in the trash
And I'm not even sad
Now you only have yourself to blame
For playing all those stupid games
You're always gonna be the same
Oh no, you'll never change

You stole my happy
You made my cry
Took the lonely and took me for a ride
And I wanna Uh-uh-uh-uh-uh undo it
You had my heart, now I want it back
I'm starting to see everything you lack
Boy, you blew it
You put me through it
I wanna Uh-uh-uh-uh-uh undo it

You want my future
You can't have it
I'm still trying to erase you from my past
I need you gone so fast

You stole my happy
You made my cry
Took the lonely and took me for a ride
And I wanna Uh-uh-uh-uh-uh undo it
You had my heart, now I want it back
I'm starting to see everything you lack
Boy, you blew it
You put me through it
I wanna Uh-uh-uh-uh-uh undo it