just shut up and drive

is it weird that i am actually possibly looking forward to valentine's day this year. and by valentine's day i mean my 2nd graders party the day before. and going out with kathy. and just avoiding the whole actual valentine's day thing.

i just finished my kid's valentine's. they were cute. and we made super cute holders today. haha. i also found out that i am really going to be on my own next week. we don't have school on monday because of president's day. then tuesday through thursday and possibly friday my mentor teacher is going to be at a conference with the other two second grade teachers. so there will be a sub there, but i am on my own, which is fine with me. minus the face that becky is the sub and last time she was there, she was really rude and treated me like i was an idiot. all i am going to say is if she tries to interupt me, i might yell at her.

i am so tired and it's only 9ish. but i think after this i am crashing. too tired to do anything else. i didn't even get to any of my grading, which is bad, but i didn't want to. i am thinking i am going to send the excel math sheets home with a mom instead of me doing them. then the other sheet we did together, so all i really need to do is star it so they know that we actually looked at it. haha 2nd graders love their stars.

i feel like i am losing contact with people cause i am teaching full time. i never get a chance to talk to jillian, which is really really depressing. and everytime my mom calls me i am either at my school or at home trying to grade or plan. i don't even get to see my roommates. i mean donald and i had a nice talk today and the only reason for that was because he walked by and i wasn't actually doing anything, for once. meh.

totally ready for a long break. like spring break. but that means i will be in my 6th grade classroom, which i am dreading. everyone i have seen at my school or talked to has told me i am going to have to take mean classes before i go there cause they are totally out of control the whole time. joy. i would just like to stay in 2nd grade forever. i like it there. it's safe. and less stressful and overwhelming.

i can't believe i only have like 3 more weeks with my 2nd graders. i am going to miss them. they have grown on me.

meh. too tired to do anything else. sleeeeeeep

i closed my eyes and let you fall

this weekend wasn't as productive as i would have liked it to have been. though i did get some accomplished, not as much as i needed to.

yesterday i went to washington to see my aunt. she also had magazines that i am going to need for my work sample. now my kids will have magazines to cut out the pictures they will need for my authentic performance task. got really good food out of it to. which means i will have lunch for tomorrow too. i also did some grading while i was there too. got a free tank of gas out of it as well. :)

today was interesting. didn't wake up till 11ish, much later than i wanted to be up. finally got up and go ready for the day. applied for another NIKE position, so we will see what happens this time. started grading papers. then it was lunch with austyn, ginger and kahli. tried to upgrade my phone at at&t, but they wouldn't let me. finally was able to upgrade over the phone. i should get my phone in a week or so... if my mom will forward it. because apparently it's a big deal that i had it shipped home. even though they couldn't ship it to any other address and they tried. ugh.

i am done grading for the night. i still have two assignments to grade, but i don't want to do them now. i just need to clean up my piles and pack for tomorrow. then i should be able to get to my laundry. finally.

watching the grammy's currently. a nice distraction.

please just hear me out

less irritated. much less. still a little annoyed but hopefully that will change.

very tired. just finished planning for two days.

i missed human interaction when i got home tonight.

last work sample lesson tomorrow. :) then nutrition game on friday.

tyrone wells concert tomorrow. amazing. can't wait.

sleeeeeeep is calling me.

i can't escape it... disappointment

some days i think it is my 2nd graders goal to irritate me to no end. today was one of those days.

i just didn't think anything was really going right. i didn't have enough to do during the reading activities so i had to improvise, my health lesson did go better than yesterday, but was still tooo long. ugh. math was terrible because i had never done the activity that we were supposed to do, so i had to rely on the kids to tell me and they were helpless. AND today was early release... it felt totally longer than yesterday.

my irritatedness started this morning... around 2ish. after that i couldn't go back to sleep for at least an hour. i felt terrible this morning trying to get up. the irritatedness just grew from there.

first night class tonight. not really looking forward to it. i just want to grade my papers and write my lesson plan for tomorrow and go to bed. ugh.

i feel like i have no life. i wake up, go to my school all day where the only adult interaction i get is at lunch and when my mentor teacher and i communicate. then i come home and grade or write a lesson plan or two, possibly eat dinner and then off to bed for the same thing. i need human interaction that isn't my kids, teacher, or supervisor.

off to get ready for class. i need food of some substance, find my water bottle and fill it up, possibly change and remember to breathe.