go on go on break my heart, i'll be okay, i'm fearless, better believe i'm fearless

this last week has been a rough week. so many things going on. just glad that it's a new week. let's just hope for a better week with less stress and less drama. one can only hope.

i now have worked the new job for 7 days. :) so far, minus the one child who drives me crazy, i love it. it's in my field and i am gaining experience. so we will see how things will go in the next few weeks. probably more updates.

thursday did happen to be a very stressful day. it was picture day, which meant we had far more children than we usually did. no only did we have more children, but since we did, everyone decided to be super wild, which lead to a child not only hitting me and kicking me nonstop, but he managed to bite me and scratch me hard enough to make me bleed. lovely child i work with.

i am sad that it is 3:30 on a sunday afternoon, that means that the work week starts tomorrow at 5:30 in the morning. boo. the countdown begins to friday. haha

now if i could just get my laundry done before the week starts, possibly some food made so i will have lunches for the week that aren't boring. i also need to finish lesson planning.

right where i was supposed to be

i can't believe today is already sunday. boo for short weekends. i think that is something i am going to miss about not having a steady full time job. all the time. although there was a downside to it as well... i had way too much time on my hands. once my schedule gets all figured out it will be nice to have a set routine.

i have to go in earlier tomorrow, but it works cause i usually get there around that time anyways... haha :) let's just hope that traffic isn't terrible and i will be able to make it there without going insane. that's the goal anyways.

laundry day. oh joy. i need to wash both my bright blue and lime green work shirts before tomorrow. i also have a ton of laundry that i have been meaning to do all week, just haven't really gotten around to it i guess. maybe it's because i make it home at night and all i want to do is eat dinner and then crash in bed. hopefully once the schedule is fully set i will know what time i will be getting home better and i will be able to figure out things. till then who knows.

i haven't been sleeping well. go figure. me not sleeping well. i was doing good for awhile, but then it just came back. i wake up a few times every night and have trouble falling back asleep. and i have woken up really sore in the morning. my back has been bothering me a lot lately and my shoulders are all out of wack, which is so frustrating. it makes it very hard to do anything without being in a lot of pain. ugh.

i wish i had room for a desk in my room. i am sure if i moved things around i could put one in here, but i don't want my room to be super crowded. i've been in rooms that are so crowded that have desks and i don't like that. i want to have room. so for now i think i will just have to deal with no desk and use the kitchen table like i have been. now if only we could get a couch. we have been looking, but nothing has panned out so far. it's frustrating.

i need to do some shopping at some point. i am running out of laundry detergent which is bad cause i have a ton of laundry to do. eek. i also need some more food, since i need to make lunches and such for the week. i just don't have the energy to do so today. i am drained from yesterday.

oh yesterday... my cousin chris got married yesterday. no one is sure why they rushed into the wedding and planned it in a week, but they did. i am happy for both chris and ada. :)

i am still waiting for my phone call that i was supposed to get yesterday. go figure. and i will continue to wait and if that means that plans fall through so be it. i did my part.

off to deal with laundry and figure out something to eat.

you got through to me, oh nobody could do that

first day of work at the new job down. let's just say that i am going to enjoy it, but i am going to be exhausted all the time and i am pretty sure i am going to have no social life. scratch that... i am going to make sure i have a social life. otherwise i am going to go insane.

i think the worst thing about my job is the commute, which everyone who i have talked to told me it would be. and so did i. but honestly there isn't anything i can do about it. i can't break my lease, cause that would cost to much not to mention leave kelly a roommate down, not that she couldn't have ben move in, since he is over here all the time anyways. haha. i am just going to have to get used to it and once the lease is up in like a year and 3 months, then i can think about moving, if i even have this job that long... haha. :)

i think this blog will be more updated more frequently starting now. i am going to need to vent and of course share all of the ridiculous stories i have. speaking of ridiculous stories.

i have a child who is autistic in my class and on top of that he has diabeties. i feel so bad for him, but he is a crack up most of the time. though there are times when he could be more calm. anyways... i learned today that he has an excellent memory. and he shared this with me by reading the hungry catepiller, without even looking at the book. i had the book in my had and i was turning the page and he was off on the other side of his sleeping mat not looking at the book, but totally reading it word for word. it was so cute. i heard that story 5 times today.

another thing i am probably not going to like about being in the classroom that i am in is the changing of the 3 children who are still working on potty training. i will not get over the fact that i have to change pull-ups. i think i gagged like 4 times today. i will not share those stories... not fun. let's just put it that way.

i have a 40 page new employee manual to read and highlight the important facts and information i am going to need to remember. i also have to fill out three more pages of paperwork, plus i need to figure out where i hid my social security card to bring it in for more paperwork tomorrow. lovely.

my soup is ready. i am going to enjoy it, possibly watch a tv show and then totally crash hard core.

and i wonder if i ever cross your mind

it still blows me away how much has changed over the past two days. i have to stop and think about it every once in a while. i can honestly say that i didn't see it coming and never thought things would have ended up the way they did. well like kathy said, at least things are over and done with. :) finally someone i could confide in who would understand.

"it's a quarter after one
i'm all alone
and i need you now
said i wouldn't call
but i lost all control
and i need you now
and i don't know how i can do without
i just need you now"

i can honestly say that i don't ever want to go through those song lyrics. especially not giving recent events. i hope that i am smart enough to realize that, but sometimes i just question myself.

possible change of plans in the personal life. we will see after tomorrow. updates to come!

off to eat the spongebob squarepants mac and cheese kelly made me. :)

i wanna do something that matters say something different

i have a job. :) it's only part time, but it's totally better than nothing. i will be working in aloha at the us bank branch there. i was offered the position on friday and now i am going through all the paperwork. oh joy. i also have to fill out paperwork and get fingerprinted, again. this time for the bank and not the school district, so apparently it's different. ugh. it's in the same county so they should be able to use the same ones. oh well. i also learned i have to go to downtown portland to get these said fingerprints done. even more ridiculous. i hate driving downtown portland. maybe i can get someone to go with me so i am not so stressed about it. haha

just finished my two week long sub job in the kindergarten/preschool classroom. minus the child who decided it would be a good idea to sit inside the toilet with his poop, things were good. now i just have to wait for another call, which who knows when that will be.

came home to the largest pile of laundry ever. that's on the list to do. along with the dishes, cleaning out the bad food from the fridge, grocery shopping, vacuuming my room, and then i think baking. i am craving brownies. haha.

chang's at some point this week with lisa, jean and ryan to celebrate my new job. :)

need to figure out what i am going to do with the tv that megan gave me. i am not sure it is actually bigger than kelly's, which means i now have two tv's with really nothing to do with them. i could hook one up in my room, but i don't have a shelf that would fit it, so until i either get one or find someone to buy the tv i have two tv's.

we are stilllll looking for a couch. we had a maintenance guy come in and fix our alarm system today and he laughed and asked how long we had been here and then said that we should invest in a couch. so that will probably be the next investment.

i'm not quite sure how i feel about last night and this morning, but i guess we will see. not sleeping is getting to me. but at least i feel a little better, minus my stomach ache, which i am hoping goes away soon.

off to deal with laundry and attack the dishes and the kitchen.