so baby drive slow till we run out of road

wow my 100th post already. well this post will be much of a rant. these last 4 days haven't been the greatest. minus the adventure the roommate and i went on yesterday. that was good.

let's start with the positive:
only 34 more days till graduation. thank the lord. who knows how much more of this i can actually take right now. graduation is going to be a big sigh of relief. and accomplishment. :) i still need to call my aunt about my party afterwards. finally bought the things to make my announcements. much cheaper than i thought it was going to be. and cheaper than what the school had to offer. i have my dress, and shoes, and i already have my cap and gown. yay.

the adventure with my roommate was wonderful yesterday. got to do a little shopping, got to eat good food and we enjoyed the nice weather. :) yay for new shorts and a skirt. love it.

the weather is amazing today. and supposed to be even better tomorrow. :) yay! though i will be inside teaching most of the day. and then i will be working all night. joy. but hey it's money so i guess its a fair trade.

now on to the negative... which is quite a long list. like i said, it hasn't been the greatest of days lately.
lets see..... my work sample is killing me. it's awful and i hate it. it doesn't help that my class is awful and they just don't care about anything. i have no freaking clue if they are learning anything at all. and i am frustrated by the whole placement. and apparently it shows according to my supervisor who observed me on thursday. which brings me to the whole reason this weekend has been awful.
i have decided to only do my ECE authorization, which means my 6th grade placement i am right now will not go towards that. i will not finish in their fully to get my elementary authorization to teach. since i am only doing the ECE i will be authorized to teach 3 year olds to 4th grade, which is exactly what i want. so since i have decided to do that, i only have to finish my 6th grade work sample in there and i am done. well i told my 6th grade mentor teacher what i have decided to do and she went ballistic. she told me that my time in there has been a complete waste and that she would rather just be done with all of it and have her class back to just herself and not have me in there at all. but my supervisor told me that i have to finish my work sample in there. so needless to say i am going back to a classroom that the teacher does not want me there. ugh. i hate this. it sucks.

i have been working on my work sample for the past two days not know if i am going to get to finish it. i might just have to start the hell over. which i really freaking hope that doesn't happen. i might actually cry or do some harm of some sort if this is the case. aaahhhhhhh!

the library is driving me insane. i have been here for almost 5 hours. gotten 1.5 lesson plans done. need to do another one and work on my authentic performance task. meh. it's going to be a long night.

off to finish a lesson plan and then the suuuuuuuuuuun for a bit!

light in the dark as i search for the resolution

i hate weekends. which is terrible because i used to love them. but my weekends consist of being in the library most of the night attempting to write lesson plans for my work sample. or other stuff that consists of my work sample. ugh. i am getting so tired of all of it. 42 days from now can't come soon enough.

easter dinner tomorrow was supposed to be nice and relaxing with my parents, sister and ginger. yah not anymore. i am just really annoyed about who else is coming. i would rather not have to deal with them. they drive me up the wall and i am in no mood or frame of mind to put up with them. plus because dinner got pushed back 2 hours ginger and i are eating and running. which isn't what i wanted to do.

i can't find the jump drive that i have been using since january. i am really hoping that it is at my school in my desk... or i am totally screwed. i really don't need this right now. ugh. i had an amost meltdown today over not being able to find it. it's just really frustrating. can't stand it.

these next two weeks are going to drown me. i work till midnight every night, don't have time to work on my lesson plans for the next day for my work sample, and i am still soloing.... which means i am doing absolutely everything. can't even stand it and it hasn't even started. i might actually cry. not to mention i have one of the worst classes in the entire school i am teaching at. so that really doesn't help.

i am really tired of the aztecs and everything that goes with it. it's frustrating. and annoying. and just ridiculous, they are never going to retain any of it.

that's the best things that's happen to me

Angel Taylor. Opening act for Gavin Degraw.



Gavin Degraw - "I Don't Wanna Be"




Tyrone Wells "Sea Breeze"

because i was taught to dream

this week has been a long one. i am so glad it's the weekend. sadly i don't have much of a weekend with all the stuff i have to do. let's see.... update cover letter, print resume's, buy folders for them to go in, laundry, and of course the dreaded work sample. once i have my laundry done, i am going to run my errands and then i am off to the library to work on my work sample till dinner tonight.

i start solo teaching in my 6th grade placement monday. a little nervous, but all around trying to be okay with the fact that i have to do it. though by the end of every week they drive me absolutely crazy. so this should be interesting as to what is going to happen. i need to also plan for the week too. reading is done. half of math is done. of course my work sample will take care of social studies. then i think there is another block of time i am not sure what we are going to do. such a pain.

i am absolutely fed up with this house. not necessarily everyone in it, but definitely a couple. somehow i find it incredibly rude that when you owe someone $45 and have for almost a month that you wouldn't take any of their stuff without asking. but apparently that isn't how it works. apparently it is totally okay to take half the cotton balls you didn't buy, food that isn't yours, alcohol that isn't yours. and then have the nerve to tell me that it isn't that big of a deal. all i am saying is have some freaking respect for the people that let you move in with them. there will be hell to pay if my money is not paid by tomorrow night. that is all i am saying.

i just need to get away from everything. sadly that isn't going to happen anytime soon. which means that i am going to be spending the least amount of time at this freaking house as i can. otherwise things might get not the greatest.

i'm off to clean the bathroom floor, deal with laundry, and start packing for the library.