i follow the signs so clearly and still they catch me

work is good. :) it's nice to be back working with kids. though i did forget how tiring it was. :) new schedule starting tomorrow. working till 5:30, which sucks since i have to commute back to hillsboro, but it's more hours so i can't complain.

slowly switching over banks. tired of dealing with chase. hopefully by next week i will never have to again. one can only hope. speaking of which, i need to go deposit my check and the cash i took out yesterday on my way home from work. meh.

i have been making lists like crazy. grocery lists, to do lists, places needing to be called. things i need, things i want, things i wish i could have. places i need to go. they are everywhere. haha

still waiting for the phone call from us bank. i got one call, but haven't heard anything since. supposedly i am for sure getting a call, but i guess i just have to wait and see when that is going to be. i hate waiting. it shows how much of an impatient person i am, which i am. and then the interview... which i am terrible at. well at least i think so. meh.

off to the grocery store for dinner stuff among other things. :)

but i promise just to follow when i land

job searching = a pain in the neck, frustrating and overwhelming.

i am so tired of job searching. every place i have had an interview with said that i need more experience before they could hire me. i don't understand how the heck i am supposed to get experience, if no one hires me. i think i am going to have to result in applying for substitute positions in all the school districts, even though that isn't what i wanted to do. now i am just worried that they aren't going to be hiring, which i really hope isn't the case. i have the phone number i need, now if it was only tomorrow already.

i also need a social life. i feel that since graduation i don't see anyone and since i am not working at the moment i don't even leave the apartment expect to check the mail, take the trash out or for a job interview; which isn't going well. ugh.

substituting isn't that bad i guess. i mean it gives me experience, which is apparently what i need. the bad thing is that it is so inconsistent. i guess it will keep me motivated to find something on the side or more permanent.

ugh... off to find something productive to do. laundry, dishes, nap... whatever works i guess.

we can't forget these are the days

my car is a piece of crap. enough said.

stranded yet again because it overheated. this time we think it was because the thermostat was broken. so needless to say what was supposed to be a trip to ikea to spend my gift card ended up being a 6 hour trip that only got us to the parking lot of ikea and we ended up in washington for a good two hours. lame. thankfully we were able to hopefully fix it and sophie and i made it safely back to our homes.

now the real test will be tomorrow when i drive it during the day and heat to see if that really was the problem or if there is something else wrong with my car. if that's the case i am going to lose it. can't afford a broken car right now.

so before you say you're going to i should probably let you know i never knew what i had

i can honestly say that there isn't really one good thing about not having a job. nope... nothing. other than permanent relaxing, which honestly gets boring after a while. seriously. i need to find a job asap or i am not only going to go broke, but i am going to go insane from all this free time on my hands.

i am having to redo my resume so now i am going to have two different ones, depending on the job i am applying for. lame. i hate writing resume's. they are such a pain. i just wish it would write itself. that would make things so much more easier.

i need to start finding things to do that are free. or low low low cost. and things that will get me out of my apartment. or things are going to be super clean allll the time and i am going to run out of thngs to organize. haha. luckily sophie and i are going to be able to go on a hike this weekend. :) it will get us both out of our apartments and get us to do something. i also think i am going to go to washington to see my aunt and cousins. maybe she will be able to help me with my resume and the us bank stuff.

dinner tonight with some friends will be good cause i will have some human interaction. :) haha and hopefully i will have plenty of that during the weekend. :) make up for the lack of it during the week i guess.

why does this economy have to suck so bad. it makes it ten times harder to find a job. makes it much more stressful. ugh. now i am just complaining.

another thing that we stilllll need for the apartment is a couch. our living room is still fairly empty, which is frustrating. and just plain annoying. hopefully something will come through sooooon. it would be nice to have some place to sit other than the kitchen table and my bed. haha.

off to find something to eat, ikea with sophie, dinner with ginger. :) at least i am trying to stay busy.